Mornings Without Mii by Mayumi Inaba

  If you’ve ever had a pet, you’ve probably felt gratitude for how they’ve been there for you during any number of significant moments in your life. The memories we form alongside our pets have a special place in us, so it makes sense that Mayumi Inaba grounds her memoir Mornings Without Mii in memories of her cat. It is her life, but through the lens of a beloved pet.

The book is a quiet, meditative reflection on Inaba’s life that reads like an episodic novel. Each section is also punctuated with a poem that parallels her experiences with her cat Mii. The account of finding Mii is heartrending; she finds the cat hanging on a school fence and rescues her from her vulnerable state. She brings the cat to trust her and they have a clear special bond and they ultimately go on walks together.

There’s a sequence that I thought had a really interesting framing. Inaba talks about the dissolution of her marriage. The relationship is clearly coming to an end but it’s anchored in their relationship with the cat. Inaba is trying to find a home but the leases all have specifications against cats. In the end, she finds a place where she can move with her cat to write, but her husband cannot make the move with her. She then reflects on her choice and sees that choosing her cat was a way of making the harder choice to let her marriage end.

As the book progresses, Inaba recounts a few significant neighbours in her life around their interactions with Mii. There’s one memorable sequence in which she remembers Mii running away and the panic of trying to find her—and then finding her with a neighbour and having to reclaim the cat. There’s also a great part where she hires a cat sitter who takes a lot of effort to personalize Mii’s care.

I think that the last third of the book is probably the most powerful; we witness Mii’s declining health and eventual death. For years, Mii declines such that her digestive system no longer functions. We then see a tenderness in Inaba as she tends to Mii, making it a routine to squeeze her bladder to help her urinate and to manually push feces through her system. They have evening walk routines and Inaba it’s clear how deeply she cares for her cat. It’s tragic watching her realize that there is nothing to be done for Mii; I think most pet owners will recognize that feeling—you know it might be time, but can’t bring yourself to do it. Inaba also recollects the memories for which Mii was her ongoing companion and, despite the book being fewer than 200 pages, it feels like an earned tragic walk down memory lane.

As I mentioned, the tone of the book is a quiet, meditative one. There’s a directness and simplicity in the language that serves a dual purpose. On the one hand, it gives the text an accessible quality and presents these nostalgic moments as matters-of-fact. On the other hand, the text’s elliptical quality gives it a weightiness, a mysteriousness. The poems at the end of the chapters are a nice touch; because the relationship with her cat develops alongside her writing career, the pairings have a formal purpose.

Of the poems, one about the loss of Mii and the mornings without her stands out as a highlight. The poem starts with the line “The night split split and never closed” (171). In the latter part of the poem, there’s a series of lines that I think encapsulate grief and loss beautifully:

“Your time in your body receded like the tide
leaving it empty
The dawn sunrise

A single unmoving point in a world on the move
The newspaper came   but there was nothing in it I

    wanted to read.” (171)

I think the line about there not being anything of the note in the newspaper is so true to life. Losing a pet creates a numbness where nothing else feels like it matters. And the fact that this comes at the end of a book about the loss feels like a nice parallel: words get to matter again as Inaba processes the loss of her beloved cat.

The book navigates difficult feelings: there’s a tension between the deep love you have for a pet, but the frustrations of caring for an ailing pet. There’s the grief and regret and doubt of doing what is best for your beloved animal companions. The book is pretty sweet, but at the same time offers its fair share of heartbreak.

If you’re looking for a bit of tenderness or if you’re processing your own pet grief, this book may well be for you. It seems inappropriate to end this review with my usual “happy reading” so instead, I’ll just request that you comment pictures of your little animal pals.

Super Nintendo: The Game-Changing Company that Unlocked the Power of Play by Keza MacDonald

  Some of my fondest video game memories are with the Super NIntendo Entertainment System: from Contra 3 to Super Mario RPG to Earthbound, the system had so many memorable experiences. With that in mind, I thought I would check out Keza MacDonald’s Super Nintendo: The Game-Changing Company that Unlocked the Power of Play. In all honesty, I expected the book to be more focused on the SNES, but the book is more of a retrospective of some of Nintendo’s landmark franchises across times and consoles, including Donkey Kong, Super Mario, The Legend of Zelda, Metroid, Pokemon, Kirby, Wii Sports, Animal Crossing, Super Smash Bros, and Splatoon.

Towards the end of the book, MacDonald makes a comment about the book being more descriptive than analytical, which I think is accurate. I would have appreciated some more exploration of the significance of particular games or analysis of their core themes. In the conversation about Animal Crossing, MacDonald does discuss the historical factors that made the game explode. It had been a franchise that faced a lot of skepticism and only really made a name for itself when Covid hit and the cozy game industry exploded, allowing people to connect even when in isolation. More historical and cultural commentary on the games would help me to connect with the overall narrative for what Nintendo is accomplishing as a company.

One thing I will say is that the book does prove inspiring for some of the franchises I’m less familiar with. The discussion of Metroid makes me want to revisit the series in more depth and the history of Kirby’s genesis is a lighthearted and joyful experience. MacDonald focuses mainly on NIntendo-driven franchises and acknowledges that there were so many innovative and interesting games (including Earthbound) that got no mention; there are a series of brief descriptions of some landmark games made by third parties and I’d love to delve more into some of those.

Super Nintendo: The Game-Changing Company that Unlocked the Power of Play essentially presents a thesis that Nintendo as a company has continuously been an innovator and that fun always comes first. They run themselves like a toy company rather than a games company and have continued to grow by allowing ideas to flourish. MacDonald does, however, express some skepticism about the ongoing success of the company. Essentially, the concern is that Nintendo will commit too much to extant franchises without pushing the boundaries. There is an element of risk that they need to lean into in order to stay relevant.

MacDonald’s book is a casual read that is a nice stroll through memory lane with some insight into why Nintendo has been successful. It’s a fun, if light, experience that makes me want to go back to the good old days of waking up at 7 a.m. on the weekend to play a game I’d rented before having to return it.

Happy reading!

Recitation by Bae Suah

Marxist philosopher and critic Louis Althusser discussed the idea of the interpellation of the subject. Essentially, he describes the way in which ideology and power transforms people into subjects as a simple process: power yells out, “Hey, you there!” and you turn around. You’re a subject because you’ve acknowledged the call. That model of interpellation troubles me because it seems so irresistible—is there no way out? No alternative? I wrote about this once during my Master’s and tried to think through a collective response to a call: think of all the people in Spartacus that respond to a call not intended for them.

I bring this up because this problematization of interpellation struck me in Recitation by Bae Suah. The central character of the novel, Kyung-Hee, recounts a moment of false identification. There’s a bizarre scene where Kyung-hee is in bed and her sister, whom she does not know at all, enters her room and begins to strangle her. The scene already feels nightmarish and surreal, but then Kyung-hee gives an account of a strange memory of identification. I’ll include a substantial portion of the account here, hopefully to also demonstrate the rich imagery of Recitation. Kyung-hee

“recalled a scene that had taken place one gathering dusk, when someone called her name. She was walking down the twilit alley. The alley sloped at a gentle gradient, lined by brick walls carpeted with soft, pale green moss, the scent of early roses coming from the gardens beyond. It was an evening in early summer, and I was on my way home from school [...] But, inexplicably, the person walking along the alley is not me but my sister. The retreating figure is that of my sister. The one returning from school is me, the one being spoken to by the objects which the sunlight touches is also me, the soft breath of the evening breeze and the scent of the roses are sensations I am experiencing, no one else; but the composite whole walking down that old alleyway with the rose branches trailing down over the red bricks, where the evening light has gathered, flushed the colour of rust, is not me but my sister” (142-143).

It’s a peculiar moment where her identification is somehow both herself and her sister “And then someone calls her name” (143). Kyung-hee narrates, “I, no, she turns and looks back. In that moment my sensations return to my body, I recover the whole that is I, and I carry on walking down the alley” (143). The moment seems so close to this moment of Althusser’s “Hey you” interpellation that I can’t ignore. But here, there’s a misidentification with her sister or a dual identification. Kyung-hee continues to recount her strangulation and the flashback to the alley. She recalls “the old alleyway where, hearing her name being called, I (she) turned to look back” (157). She continues on to explain how this identification then extends to her physical appearance, too: “the fact that gradually, as I grew up, I outwardly came to resemble my old sister; the moment when, being struck by the intense feeling that my face in the mirror very strongly reassembled someone else’s, I had the astonishing presentiment that that someone might be none other than my sister; all of these disappeared from my memory” (157).

I find this strange moment so compelling because it also fits in with the broader pattern of the text. I’ll have to admit that Recitation is a darn weird book. The novel can be described reasonably simply about a Korean woman, Kyung-hee, who used to work in recitation performances (specifically not acting—recitation). She has minimal action on stage, but one day has a spontaneous toe break. In response, she decides to go walking around the world, somewhat figuratively and somewhat literally. The book is essentially encounters she has with boarders and travellers at places she stays. But there’s something about the style where the shifts happen so oddly that we jump between time frames and characters in ways that require a great deal of attention to detect. The ‘voice’ of the character becomes ambiguous. Even Kyung-hee’s job as a recitation actress is someone else speaking through her. Thematically, the work is very tight in that respect—we never quite know who is talking, who we’re seeing, how they’re interpolating. In the final movement of the book, we see Kyung-hee’s children looking for their estranged mom. I’m a little unclear on whether this happens in reality. The book then ends with a recitation—again, taking us further away from the main character.

I find all of this fascinating, but I also don’t pretend to really understand the novel. There are a number of scenes I found impactful—the toe breaking scene, the strangulation, and some of Kyung-hee’s connections. The book is punctuated by a “Karakorum” organization, which is essentially a network of couch surfers and home exchanges. This allows Suah to incorporate a number of diverse experiences, making the novel read somewhat like a short story collection. In my experience, the novel is best consumed by reading it in prolonged sessions; the elliptical nature of the text requires sustained attention to how these moments are connected.

The novel also is a pursuit of absences. Kyung-hee goes in search of her former German teacher. There’s a character named Mr. Nobody. When the surprise characters arrive (I didn’t even notice the moment Kyung-hee’s narration turned to that of her potential children), they even note that the more they try to pin down the situation, the less present Kyung-hee seems to be. They describe what happens when they are listening to her uninflected recitation:

“But the more we strained to catch the details of what was being said, the more the whispering persuaded us of Kyung-hee’s absence. Kyung-hee had been discontinued. Kyung-hee was finished. Kyung-hee had boiled down. Kyung-hee had been annulled. Kyung-hee had been dismantled. Kyung-hee was the burnt-out past. Kyung-hee had become no one. Kyung-hee was nothing. The woman lacked the fact of being Kyung-hee. Kyung-hee had been extinguished. Kyung-hee was within the sleep of sleep. In other words, doubly asleep. Kyung-hee was with a woman who no one knew, with no way to tell the two of them apart. Kyung-hee was three-fourths Kyung-hee. Notification of the fusion of Kyung-hee’s components. Kyung-hee had slipped down in the form of low hills … The whispering continued night after night, lingering into the hours of broad daylight, clinging to our ears as we rode the bus or the subway or wandered the streets of Seoul, and we didn’t know how to shake it off” (242).

The disconnect feels eerie. The incantatory repetition of the passage is alarming. The more her name is repeated, the less she is there—and there are so many types of absence that the ways of describing it seem innumerable. 

In terms of other angles, I don’t have a lot to say about Recitation. I think the work is masterful and thoughtful. There are so many moments of rich imagery and carefully constructed narratives. The layered nature of the text makes it extraordinarily difficult to follow the specific facts. Even the sentence structure and vocabulary, for a reason I can’t quite place, feels misty. Working through a page of text, I found my mind drifting—which was less than ideal, because the narrative, too, drifted. Trying to grapple with this strange hypnosis made it harder for me to latch onto the text. That being said, I think Suah has something really special here (maybe not as special as Untold Night and Day felt to me at the time). The craftsmanship and layering of the text is a truly impressive, if inaccessible, feat.

Happy reading!